scan results

I was so nervous. I had a cat scan on Monday and had to wait till Tuesday to find out if we were all clear. The doctor was running late and it was torture to wait. A few nurses and the pharmacist came in to wish me luck and say goodbye, it was really sweet. I could hardly carry on a conversation though, I was so nervous. I had to wait for forever but my scan IS CLEAR!!!! I guess I'm not technically considered cancer free, the way the oncologist phrased it was that they saw no signs of active cancer in my body. I thought for sure that I would cry for joy when I got the results but I just felt relief. We talked about prevention and diet. To be honest, the 'suggested' diet is pretty much how I eat now so it's not much of a change. We talked about what to expect- labs every 3 months and a scan once a year but my next scan will be in 6 months. I'll have to start getting mammograms now since I have an increased risk for breast cancer. A colonoscopy in 6 months. Lots of medical stuff in my future. But if it keeps the cancer away, I'm happy to comply.

We also talked of recurrence. It has weighed heavily on my mind since then, which is why this post is delayed a bit. I am also sick with a head cold which has put a damper on the celebration as well. Part of me can't believe this is all almost over. Cancer has taken over my life and changed nearly every aspect of my life and it feels just so good to almost be DONE with it. I almost can't believe that we're really here, at the end. So relieved, still a bit worried, but so happy to be at the end of this experience. Surgery is tomorrow and I am ECSTATIC!!!!!! Can't wait to get this bag off of me and to not be cancer girl anymore! One or two more prayers for me would be appreciated :) xoxoxoxoxoxo