getting all super Mormon on ya

I regret my previous blog post.

I was pretty sure I was going to regret it as I was writing it. I contemplated not publishing it but that was how I felt and I didn't really have anything else to say.

Have I mentioned on here how Sundays are my favorite days? I can quite literally feel all of the prayers offered for me on that day. I think that since it is a holy day, and people are at church, I get extra prayers on Sundays. Sundays help carry me through the week. I feel like I probably had a more difficult week last week because we were traveling on Sunday and didn't make it to church. My faith has made all the difference.

I have wondered what has compelled all these people, both of my faith and those of other faiths (or no faith), to reach out to me and be so incredibly kind to me. Today in church we were reading in Mosiah 18 verses 8 & 9 (https://www.lds.org/scriptures/bofm/mosiah/18?lang=eng)

8 And it came to pass that he said unto them: Behold, here are the waters of Mormon (for thus were they called) and now, as ye are desirous to come into the fold of God, and to be called his people, and are willing to bear one another’s burdens, that they may be light;

 9 Yea, and are willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort, and to stand as witnesses of God at all times and in all things, and in all places that ye may be in, even until death, that ye may be redeemed of God, and be numbered with those of the first resurrection, that ye may have eternal life—

These verses hit me so hard - this is what you have all been doing. You are the Lord's people. You are bearing my burdens, you are making them light. Thank you for mourning with me, comforting me, for being in this horrible place with me. Even until death. I mean, seriously, that might sound dramatic, but truly. 

I know that not everyone who reads my blog is LDS. And I really don't want to get all preachy or make anyone uncomfortable. But today I bore my testimony in church and I would really like to do my best to bear my testimony here, I would like it for my children. Once a month, usually the first Sunday of the month, we have testimony meeting where members from the congregation speak from the pulpit and share what they believe or know to be true. I can't remember exactly what I said, but this is what I would like to say here.

I have, what I consider to be, a very meager and simple testimony. I know my church is true.
That it is Christ's church restored here on the Earth. I know that Christ is my brother and he loves me. I am learning how to let Him carry my burdens. I have felt Him right beside me as I have struggled through this last month.
I have never been on the receiving end of so many prayers offered on my behalf. I have heard people say that they have felt people's prayers for them and I never understood that before. I know that my parents probably prayed for me, but I was too young to understand or really feel them. I have been extremely humbled as I have felt so much strength and peace from hundreds of people praying for me. I feel it especially on Sundays, it being a holy day.
I know that families can be together forever. That has meant more to me in the last month than it ever has before. I love my family. I love my children. I know that God loves me. I know that I am His daughter and He is aware of me and aware of my needs.
I don't want cancer. I really really don't want cancer. But I have seen the good that has come out of it, I have seen the blessings and the changes that have happened in a short amount of time, and I am grateful for them. Our home has been a different place, we have had a spirit in our house that I was unable to bring on my own prior to this experience.
Now I know that I'm not supposed to do a thank-imony but I just have to say that I am so thankful for everyone here who has done so many wonderful things for our family. I can talk about cancer all day long and not get even a little bit emotional, but when I start trying to talk about the service that has been rendered to my family - I just, there are no words. I could thank you every day for all of eternity and it wouldn't be enough.
I love you all and I am so thankful for the strength and support you have given me during this difficult time.
I know it's only going to get more difficult but I am just humbled and amazed at what has been done for us in the last month. I love my Father in heaven, I love His Son and I know that my prayers are heard and answered.